The Beginning 🌷

Everything that must happen, must have a beginning🤝.

This is my beginning. The start of something new✨.

I've tried writing a blog before, and it didn't really turn out the way I would've wanted it 😪💔. But I'll just blame that on my lack of time and complete attention🙂.

So I've decided to start over, like I said, with something new🌺.

If you're the kind of reader who is interested in specifics and facts, and information; I'd like to just say that you are not in the right place🙅

Because this blog is about my life, as a sixteen year old Nigerian 🇳🇬. It is a blog about my struggles in life🤼, about the things I see in life and cannot speak of🤐. It's about me👩, in my own little way, giving a piece of myself out, or better yet, laying myself bare to whoever might be reading this.

To me, this is a place where I can put out all my insanity and crazy thoughts💆.

Because that is the reason I write✍️.

I do not necessarily write to give pleasure to my readers. I write to express myself, to speak for myself. To release all my craziness and my insecurities and my hopes and my dreams.

I write not because I can.i

But because I must.

Crazy yeah?

But it's what I'm mostly made off.

And you might as well put in a little wierd😅.

Like every normal person, I have dreams and hopes and fears.

Like every normal person I want to know right away what my purpose is in life. I want to know that I've left an impact in this world after I die.

And like every normal teenage girl, I want to live and let live.

And I want to love and be loved.

It seems easy enough💁, especially when my parents tell me that they've been where I am, and that all I really need to do is to study, and pray and wait for the things that will come in God's time, since I am lucky enough to have things provided for me.

But it's never easy to study.

It's never easy to pray.

And it is sure as hell never easy to just wait.

Although the lack of patience is probably why some of us get to experience a lot of horrible things in life😪.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that being an adolescent is really really hard😔

I got the name of this blog from one of my old favorite Nickelodeon shows; Unfabulous.

I remembered how the main character ( I can't really remember her name) had trouble fitting in at school, getting the boy she liked, and I basically remembered how she always had everyday struggles, be them comical or not.

And the I realized, hell, my life is definitely Unfabulous too🤷

Because I struggle to fit in at school.

I sometimes get worried that I'm not good enough to get honest attention from a good guy.

And I face a lot of hardships that someone my age shouldn't even be worried about.🤦

But that's life.

It is definitely unexpected,

And well, Unfabulous.

So yeah, 

I guess this is where I begin.

I hope on some level you'll get to understand what I see.

And maybe find some kind of similarity in your life too.

And with this,

I say welcome to My Amazing World of Insanity 💆✨