Out of my mind 🥀

~K❤️

   An excerpt.🥀

From the Bible 🌸.

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She should have never turned back. Not after the three heaven sent men had warned her, lot and her children.

     But her sole weakness were things of the world and she could not bear to leave everything she knew and loved behind.

     But as most people had said, that would always be her downfall.

     It seemed as so her feet were rooted to the ground, her hands, fixed in place slowly changing from it's normal glowing radiance, to the dull grading of salt.

     She wished that the fact that she was slowly losing control of her body was what terrified her. But no, it was th fact that she could not change the position in which she was in to see the ones that she loved.

     She was trapped in her body, fully aware of her surroundings cursed by her thoughts.

     It might have been selfish of her to wish that even Lot would turn back to try and save her, but she cared not.

     Even a glance her way would relieve her of her growing pain.

     But she knew he would not. Neither of them would.

     This was to be her punishment.

                      Her curse.

     To be forced to watch her home burn to ashes, and to never be able to start anew.

      How fitting; she thought with a scoff. To have an eternity, as part of the very things she could not do without.

   

                                        - The first day.

                                                Mrs. Lot

I have no idea why this popped into my head💆.

But I've always been curious about how Lot's wife felt when her family left her behind.

I sometimes feel that way too though.

Trapped. Terrified.

Locked in my thoughts.

Left behind.

Her punishment is what some of us have to deal with everyday of our lives😓.

And it reminds me of what is waiting for some of us at the end of our lives.

She (Lot's wife) was trapped in her own type of hell...

I wonder what God has install for the ones who fall short....

IN MY FEELINGS🤒💆

I'm always told that i should never let people hurt me.

Every where on the internet there are quotes about how we should never let people hurt us, always let things go.

Lots of important people preach about how we should somehow, never feel sad or angry, and always always be happy.

It's good to always be positive, yes.

But that's all a bunch of bull sugar.

God gave us emotions so that we could feel them, not so that we could bury them, and die on the inside, simply because we want to pretend that we are strong, when we know that we are not.

Pain is to be felt.

We can never run from the hurt.

We can never run from the sadness

We can never ever run from the pain.

It's part of life.

It is okay to cry, scream and shout when we are in pain and when we need to let all the madness out.

There is no weakness in tears.

We were not given tear glands for no reason.

The truth is, those who pretend to not care, those who potray themselves as people who cannot be hurt and do not feel pain, are the ones who suffer.

You can only ever get comfort and support when you show that you need it.

I didn't think this way before until I watched the movie "inside out".

Joy wanted her host to always be happy. She wanted her to have no horrible memories, but instead she caused more damage than good.

It is in those moments where we are at out worst that we figure out, with the help of our friends and family, how to get to our best.

Life can't always be full of good things.

And then, it will never be filled with too much sadness either💁.

Buy we can never neglect our feelings for the fear of being weak🙅.

It is the strong who cry, clean their tears, meditate and move forward🚶🚶.

I'm not saying we should be sad people

All I'm saying is that we've all got feelings.

And they demand to be felt 💁