Today We Vote🇳🇬

For most Nigerians, today is a game changer.

We get to decide who will either move us a couple of steps forward to become a greater a Nation, or take us further into the helplessness and unproductiveness that we are drowning in.

I'm sixteen, and I cannot vote, so I honestly did not take my time to think about who I want to be my next president and who I think should never even see the primaries of a presidential election. But as citizen of this ever degraded country, I want things to get better.

I want people to stop taking the country God chose for me to be birthed in, as a joke for other countries to laugh at.

I want to be proud of my origins and not be ashamed of them.

And how this country will progress is in the hands of my elders. I hope they make the right decisions.

I have wondered countless of times, how we got to this point we are in today.

I mean, did we do something to offend God?

Did our ancestors displease their gods?

We have gone through so many hardships, many of our leaders being murdered because their successors feel that they will rule better than their predecessors.

So much bloodshed in our history.

So many tears.

And you'd think that will all we've gone through, the people who come forward to represent our people will think of our developed first, before their personal needs.

That is not the case however, and people like me have been forced to settle for a president who won't embarrass us abroad 🙏

Left for me, I will simply give up on this country and it's wasted politics, it's terrible decision making, and it's horrible tribalistic struggles.

But I figured that one day, I will give birth to children who will still call Nigeria their country, and have to face ridicule from great nations like the United States of America and the United Kingdom, not because they are inadequate, but because they are citizens of a  country most people look down on.

I want Nigeria to be a better place for the people who are yet to come into the fold.

I do not want to disappoint the next generation the same way my elders have disappointed me.

And so I pray and I hope, that today, the people of this generation decide to make their decisions not for their personal gain, but because it will help us move forward.

I hope that each vote cast today by Nigerians, no matter who the vote supports, is in the hope of a better country, and a better Nation.

And I pray especially for those who do not realize that voting is our duty to our nation.

Because being apathetic, is the same thing as supporting all the wrongs that go on this country.

I hope I'm making a lot of sense...

Hell, I'm not even using emoji's because this is something that should be taken seriously.

I put this election into the hands of God 🙏

And may the best man to serve win✨

The Day of Love❤️

Today is the day for all people born of and with love give love👫💑, and maybe or maybe not, receive it🤷.

This year, I am not on the receiving end of the romantic kind however😶, which is a good and a bad thing💁.

Good❤️, because I can spend this year's valentine appreciating the friends that I love( and who love me back of course), instead of pining on a boy to make my valentine's day.

And bad😪, because I'm a sappy romantic at heart😭😭. And its a damn shame I can't have that single person to share my feelings and affections with.

So today, what I planned on doing was to send a mail to God, about the boy of my dreams,

Yes, I was going to send a mail to God, I consider it a prayer, thank you very much🙃.

But I figured that since I'm writing a blog and all, it'll be nice for my readers to know what I classify as " the perfect boy"🤗

So here goes...

Dear God🙏,

Unlike last year, I'm without a partner, and honestly? At a point before today, I felt like I was going to be a little sad today🤧, because couples would be spreading their love, and I'd be forced to hide my distress under slightly nasty comments🤫 and talks of having "no vibe" for valentine.😬

But then I spoke to a really good friend of mine who told me something that made me think it wasn't really a bad thing to have no valentine, when I could simply just come and tell you what my greatest desires are in a boy and pray that you'll spare me the heartache, and grant my heart desires.

Sometimes, I'd like to think that I want him to be tall🕴️, and handsome🤸 and rich💰. But I  figured I'd just be asking for all the regular pretty boys with bad attitudes🧐.

Although it won't really hurt if he's taller than I am🙈😚.

I want him to, on the first day of seeing me, think of me as one of a kind. As something rare that he should want to have and take care of. In my fantasies he knows I'm the only one for him, and when I see him, I know he's the only one for me too☺️❤️.

I want him to court me, no matter how old fashioned it might seem, and have interests in the things that I love, and in the things that I don't.
I want him to take me dancing 💃💃, even though he knows that I really can't dance to save the universe😂😅, but then he'll dance with me anyways.
I want him to want me to sing for him every day 🎶 And  tell me that my voice is beautiful ✨,and mean it.
I want him to be my best friend 🌈❤️

I want him to care about my future, I want him to encourage me to always do what's right, amd I want him to always be there for me when I need someone to hug, or to cry on, or hell, even to scream at when this world's frustrations have broken me into untraceable pieces.

I want him to respect me enough not to be with me  just because I'm attractive or pleasing to the eye, but for what's in my head💆, and the things that I do that touch his 💓.

I want him to look at the things I write and tell me where he thinks I should work on, and praise me when my work is amazing ( as it always is of course😏)

I want him to trust me, to tell me what he thinks about life, music 🎶and art. I want to talk about real things with him, like family and friendships👫, like our hopes and our dreams.

Things like love❣️.

I want him to show me who he is, knowing fully well that I will accept him for who he is, not because he's perfect, but because he knows I love him, and that he loves me too❣️❣️❣️.

I want him to hold my hand🤝, and hug me, even when to others it might be weird or awkward. I want him to look at me like I'm the reason he breathes😩❤️. Just as he is my reason for breathing.

I want him to be proud of me, and to only ever try to make me better.

I wouldn't have to try to be a better person with him though, with him I can only ever be the best, just as I want him to be the best because he's with me.

I want to laugh with him😂😂, and cry on and for him😭😭, when he'll do silly things and get into trouble( on occasion of course😅). I know we'll get mad at each other a couple of times, but I hope we'll always love each other enough to remember that we can't let little arguments tear us apart😊👫.

I want him to be my sun and stars ⛅✨.

Just as he is mine🌟.

I want our happiness to be linked.

I want to think of him and smile, the same way he'll do the same for me.

I want him to see me as his equal🌈.

I don't care if he isn't as handsome and as rich as the next guy🙅,

I just want him to love me as much as I love him❣️.

 I want him to be my forever and always✨.

I hope it isn't too much too ask🙏.

I don't know if I'll ever meet someone like this in my lifetime.

But I know deep down that I will never settle for less.

I only hope you'll show him to me, so I don't end up in a disaster that will last me a life time🙌.

Your Daughter,

Kachi❤️.

I hope we all find what we're looking for 🌈✨

Happy Valentine's day ❤️

The Beginning 🌷

Everything that must happen, must have a beginning🤝.

This is my beginning. The start of something new✨.

I've tried writing a blog before, and it didn't really turn out the way I would've wanted it 😪💔. But I'll just blame that on my lack of time and complete attention🙂.

So I've decided to start over, like I said, with something new🌺.

If you're the kind of reader who is interested in specifics and facts, and information; I'd like to just say that you are not in the right place🙅

Because this blog is about my life, as a sixteen year old Nigerian 🇳🇬. It is a blog about my struggles in life🤼, about the things I see in life and cannot speak of🤐. It's about me👩, in my own little way, giving a piece of myself out, or better yet, laying myself bare to whoever might be reading this.

To me, this is a place where I can put out all my insanity and crazy thoughts💆.

Because that is the reason I write✍️.

I do not necessarily write to give pleasure to my readers. I write to express myself, to speak for myself. To release all my craziness and my insecurities and my hopes and my dreams.

I write not because I can.i

But because I must.

Crazy yeah?

But it's what I'm mostly made off.

And you might as well put in a little wierd😅.

Like every normal person, I have dreams and hopes and fears.

Like every normal person I want to know right away what my purpose is in life. I want to know that I've left an impact in this world after I die.

And like every normal teenage girl, I want to live and let live.

And I want to love and be loved.

It seems easy enough💁, especially when my parents tell me that they've been where I am, and that all I really need to do is to study, and pray and wait for the things that will come in God's time, since I am lucky enough to have things provided for me.

But it's never easy to study.

It's never easy to pray.

And it is sure as hell never easy to just wait.

Although the lack of patience is probably why some of us get to experience a lot of horrible things in life😪.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that being an adolescent is really really hard😔

I got the name of this blog from one of my old favorite Nickelodeon shows; Unfabulous.

I remembered how the main character ( I can't really remember her name) had trouble fitting in at school, getting the boy she liked, and I basically remembered how she always had everyday struggles, be them comical or not.

And the I realized, hell, my life is definitely Unfabulous too🤷

Because I struggle to fit in at school.

I sometimes get worried that I'm not good enough to get honest attention from a good guy.

And I face a lot of hardships that someone my age shouldn't even be worried about.🤦

But that's life.

It is definitely unexpected,

And well, Unfabulous.

So yeah, 

I guess this is where I begin.

I hope on some level you'll get to understand what I see.

And maybe find some kind of similarity in your life too.

And with this,

I say welcome to My Amazing World of Insanity 💆✨